2336 minutes ’til the New Year

2009 was an interesting year. I have to admit, I will be a little relieved to see it end. That’s not to say it was all bad – we got engaged, adopted our kitten and sold our house. However, there was a lot of stress and negativity as well. Lots of ups and downs.

2010 will be great. Really, how can it not be? We will move into our new house and get married! Will also continue work on M’s company, getting ready for him to go out on his own. Granted, I still have to figure out what I am doing in terms of my own career path… but I’m working on that. Sort of.

My biggest goal for the next year is to be happier & more positive. I’m a bit cynical by nature, not to mention neurotic. Combine those two and basically you’re left with someone who’s afraid to be happy because they are convinced they will swiftly be proven wrong. Objectively, I know this is no way to live– what a waste of time and energy to feel that way. Particularly with everything going on right now – I should be enjoying the wedding planning process, rather than stressing about work, money and other silly details.

Speaking of the wedding: I am a huge wedding slacker. I really need to get on with booking a ceremony venue. Oops. Just one minor detail: we can’t find one! M had his heart set on an outdoor ceremony and it’s strangely difficult to find an outdoor venue that can accomodate 200-220 guests.

Plan B is an indoor ceremony with candlelight, flower petals, etc. It would be at 4 or 5pm (photos beforehand) and we could play up the romantic, evening feel. I think it could be quite elegant. However, I am sad that M might not get the one thing he really cared about. Er, that sounds bad; of course he cares about the wedding… but other details like flowers aren’t exactly his cup of tea. Or his mug of beer, rather.

I mentioned before that we’re working with a planner; from what I’ve gathered in my discussions with her, I suspect she’s used to the stereotypical Bridezilla. i.e.: very detail-oriented, knows exactly what she wants, pro-active planner… basically, the opposite of me. I don’t think she knows what to make of me. 

It has occurred to me that I have become one of those girls that I used to hate. When M and I were still dating, I used to hear them complain about wedding planning. I used to think ‘Are you kidding me? You’re marrying the man you love. How bad can it be? Suck it up‘. And now, I have to say, I’m eating my words just a little bit

Don’t get me wrong: I am excited to marry M (so much so that I wish the wedding were sooner than September!). I know the wedding will be wonderful. I just wish someone could crawl into my head, take all of the ideas out, and translate them into my wedding. Then I’ll show up at the designated date, time and location. Is that so much to ask?

Birthday recap + other weekend activities

Had a fabulous, if lazy, birthday yesterday. Seems I enjoy my birthdays more when I don’t have crazy high expectations. Especially given the somewhat inconvenient timing of my birthday; 6 days before Christmas, people tend to be out of town, entertaining visitors of their own, off on a tropical getaway, or flat-out broke from holiday festivities. Thus, I decided to spend the day with the ones who matter most:  the fiance and the fam!

Woke up early and hit the gym for full-body weights, followed by a massage. The weights were much-needed since I’ve been slacking in favour of cardio and Ashtanga. I’m a bit sore today, but in a good way. It’s twisted, but I kind of enjoy delayed-onset-muscle-soreness (aka DOMS)– even though I know it`s not an accurate indicator of workout efficacy. I did notice that my focus was much better than usual, probably due to so much yoga. Rather than focusing on ‘repping it out’ and getting in & out of the gym, I was able to concentrate on each rep and how it felt. Good stuff.

Then, dinner with the fam. Dinner was amazing. I ate a ton. Between the three of us (as I mentioned previously, fiance is not an adventurous diner), we had: miso, soba noodles, california rolls, spider rolls, agedadhi tofu, the most melt-in-your-mouth tuna sashimi, salmon sashimi and tamago sushi. The fiance had beef meatballs as an app, then sesame beef with rice and veg. I also may or may not have had some of the fiance’s food too.

This was followed by Inglorious Basterds, which was surprisingly entertaining. The trailers made it look a bit iffy, but it was much better than Star Trek, which we pay-per-viewed on Friday night.

Today was a rest day and consisted of Christmas Celebration #1. Visited with my father`s side of the family, who the fiance happens to be friends with as well. This includes my two male cousins who are basically like brothers to me (being an only child, it`s the closest thing I have). They both have adorable baby boys– 9 and 11 months, respectively.

I must confess to having a touch of baby fever. I can`t wait to have kids. I`ve felt my biological clock ticking for about 5 years now and it has not subsided with time. Although our kitten thinks he`s a baby, it`s just not quite the same. The fiance has a lot of children on his side of the family too, so for the time being, we get to visit and occasionally babysit… But I can`t wait to have our own someday. Once we are settled in the new house and- of course- married, then we’re going to re-evaluate and go from there.

Tonight’s agenda: laundry, cooking dinner, prepping breakfast for the week and other productivity. Dinner will be taco-flavoured chicken breasts, corn, roasted cauliflower and broccoli (love roasting cruciferous veg) for me and potatoes for fiance. Was going to go grocery shopping but opted not to since we’ll be leaving mid-week to visit family. Instead, I will try to be creative and use up what we have (even if that means resorting to the frozen veggies in the freezer that I generally ignore).